Monday, April 16, 2007
Whatever you do … pls read continue reading this post until the end…
SYF is over… I cant believe it.. it was like damn quick larhx…
I love Xinmin Chinese dance troupe a lot a lot a lot…. We are so bonded… think I shall start from the beginning
I woke up at 5.45…
Then went to limin’s house for the braids thing… first, I left home late… at 6.15, when I’m suppose to reach at 6.15.
Then, I went to the wrong block- 533 instead of 553 -.-
So we were kinda late larhx…
When we reached school, we found out that we tied our hair wrongly, cos, it was too big… In other words, I went to limin’s hse 4 no reason… nvm-.-
Then we wear our costume and my foundation smudged on my costume WA LAO! So unlucky leh… so I had to spent time removing the foundation on my costume with makeup remover…
We put on our makeup… it was nice lah...esp the eye 1…
Then we ate and, put lipstick and the hair thing….
We went to the hall to practice aftthat… and borrowed some shoes from the ppl having PE, to mark out the stage… thanx man! We made them wait for their shoes leh… they sacrifice their recess! So nice…
(my eng sux, cos I’m nt in a gd mood sry… but I shall force myself to blog on…)
Then, we set off 4 NUS….
The school after us was like saying we COPY their costume larh! Pls lah… ours really nicer lorhx… nevermind….
We did some warm ups and we cheer…
The school b4 us was using the smoke machine… thus, making the floor slippery….
But we still managed, cos our sch hall the floor is much more slippery than the stage one…
At the backstage I was like forgetting all my moves liao… cause I was too nervous… it was super scary lar! But I still managed with the music…
We really tried our best… made a few mistakes… but mrs lim told us that gold shldnt be a problem… it’s the matter of gold or gold with honours!....
Every1 was sleeping on the bus, cos we were too tired…
When we reach school we were screaming like crazy ppl in the parade square lah… then we threw all our jackets
We webt to the foyer to take a grp photo… and ppl were like applauding us…. So cool!
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(the below contents have nothing to do with syf)
I hate myself for having so many commitments
I hate myself for making so many mistakes in life…
I hate myself for letting down my friends again and again
I hate myself for saying sorry so many times on this blog
I hate myself for neglecting ppl
I hate myself for doing stuff that I noe is wrong
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I don’t expect u guys to forgive me….
but I’ll still try my best to make up for my mistakes…
I noe that I have caused a lot of troubles…
I noe I have made u all angry over and over again…
I noe I shldnt have left today….
I don’t noe why I did…
I know that I broke many promises…
I know that i don’t have much free time…
I’m thinking of not having so many alr…
But I beg u to give me another chance…
I promise…
I swear…
I will not let any amount of commitments, canings, scoldings, setbacks spoil our friendship…
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I just feel really confused and stressed now…
I don’t know what to do…
I don’t know what to say…
I have 3 things worrying me now…
-what I have done to u all today
-my parents
-(dun ask pls)
Trust me with another chance please…
I promise that I will change…
From tomorrow onwards, I shall be a better friend…
A better me…
I will not let you down anymore…
No matter how much it takes….
I will stand by you ppl always…
I noe this is my last chance
‘我很想哭，但就是哭不出。这一种压力和感觉是很难受的…你知道吗？’
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
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