Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Dance today was absolutely disappointing…
it’s my fault, I totally screwed up...
Why? Why?! Cant I do it right for once?...
Why must I always screw up the whole dance?!
Why can’t I do it?!
Why can’t I be like the others?!...
This is like the 2nd time I cant find the centre line 4 e triangle part… and lao shi made us do it again.. I’m so sorry people.. its just that I really demoralized right now… I’m so sorry I keep screwing up… I really don’t know what to do…
to those people whom I accidentally ignored or if I did not laugh at your jokes, I’m sorry… I really didn’t want to cry during the dance… … I’m sorry… but I promise I will really try my very very best to not screw up again…
pls trust me…
ruimin talked to us today… I was really very disappointing to hear her say that we all were slacking n that we totally pissed lao shi off today.. she was like so totally quiet,
what seriously made me sad was the fact that the 2nd time I screwed up (I blanked out at the yuemin, me n ruimin part)… she did not even scold me for that… I wish she did… it was so obvious that she saw it! And she did not even say anything… has she given up hope on me?... I wish she had scolded me… I’m very sorry to have let you down, just 3 more lessons away from the syf…
pls tell me we still have hope dancers… I really need to hear that all our hard work will pay off, right now…
today after sch.. I had to rushy for the motivator’s training.. OIC couldn’t make it.. so basically, I had explain the stuff on the PowerPoint slides, which I have never seen b4… it was… er.. Challenging… but it was gd experience…
charis, njl, meiqi, yuxin.. I’m so sry.. I couldn’t make it for the interview today, cause I had to eat after tt, then go 4 dance… sry… please understand tt I cant possibly survive trough out dance with no lunch… n I though njl n charis was suppose to go 2 bev hse, after sch?....hmm…;)
nvm… I’m a little happier nw that I have blogged… but I’m still very tired… my legs r all so jelly nw…
“bumble bee’s wings are not built for flying, but they6 don’t knoe that , so they just fly away…” haha that was nice rite?... I don’t noe the exact words, but it was something like that anyway…
Can I not go school 2morrow.. I’m nt feeling 2 well.. JIAYOU NICOLE!.. I shall try my best… for dance(have dance again 2morrow)… maybe I’m just tired now…
Ya n I’m nt going 4 the match on wed cos of practice… but I’m going on thurs… JIAYOU Vball!!!
DANCERS… pls… BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!
Need to do hw liao… bye!
--Mary HAD a little lamb--
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