L.A.M.B!

Saturday, April 21, 2007

hey look i finally post without NJL's help!!! lol... my own blog is coming up...=)

i finally went for ballet today!!but i'm still thinking abt whether to take the inter exam or not.....
4 lessons per week!!! its impossible!!! but i'm afraid next yr i will be more busy....=( haizz...

i went for the streaming tok last fri... i feel if the presure.... so if i blog less after tis, its becos i's FINALLY studying..=)

i'm super cod nw... its freezing in my aunt's room.. so.yah bye...=)

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

9:06 AM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!

XINMIN CHINESE DANCE GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

I cant believe it larhx! Our hard work finally paid off….
I shall start from the beginning…

We went to ask mr chia and mdm liew, after assembly, whether we can like ask all the Chinese dancers to meet at the parade square before they announce the result… then mdm liew just said

“oh… you all are getting your results today…. Hmmm… okay no problem… that sounds like a very good idea…”

She was so supportive of us lahx!! She rox man!!

Then, before even the dancers knew the results, this was roughly wat happened…

Mdm gwee, who was the one who went to collect the results, smsed mrs lim, once she got the results… then I think mrs lim went to tell mdm liew or something. Mdm liew was so happy and could not belief that it was real. So, she went to call mdm gwee and double checked….

Then, mdm liew asked mr chia to make announcement for all dancers to come down…

I rushed out of the class immediately and met peiying at the corridor there…both of us were ultra nervous and on the verge of crying liao leh!!

(sorry my eng sux today, cos I’m 2 excited and happy!)

Then, we both ran down together…

Omg lah! Then when we were there mdm liew and mr chia looked so sad! Purposely 1 lor! Make us feel so scared… it was so nice to see all the dancers again!

Then a lot of teachers, including mrs lim and mrs ng was outside the staffroom… then mrs lim was like crying liao larhx! So we all thought that we only got gold and some started crying…

Then mdm liew said “Xinmin chinese dance has been awarded … the gold .. with honours award”

We were like screaming that time and every thing was like so magical and miraculous!

Everyone was like crying..
The feeling just cant be expressed in words…

And mrs lim came down and we started hugging her…

Then we did the 3 cheers…

And everyone was hugging each other, crying tears of joy! The scene was just so touching!

Then we went to the centre of the parade sq and screamed “XINMIN CHINESE DANCE GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!”

It was super cool larhx… thank you for sharing this experience with me!!!

Then we stressed a lot of ppl out lorhx choir ppl, guzheng ppl., eldds ppl…
Jiayou 4 syf

And according to ruimin… we touched a lot of pro dancers heart (you shld noe who are the people)… ;)… hehehex

I will remember that magical moment forever…=)

GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!
GOLD WITH HONNNNOURS!!!

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

6:37 AM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Finally, a happy post…=) I feel very happy today… =)

I don’t really know why… maybe its because nothing bad happened to me today…for once=)

Being happy is good right? =) …. Ok I shan’t be too high…

Today is Tuesday… and there is no dance... I miss dance already… one month without dance is impossible… it’s a good thing that ballet is still on… or I really don’t know how to survive man!....

Tomorrow, we are getting our results… no matter what we get, I will still be proud of Xinmin Chinese Dance…

Who cares if that mean old man doesn’t give us a Gold With Honours? Its their loss if they don’t get to watch us for the SYF opening or closing ceremony anyway! Hehex…=)

At the beginning, everyone thought that it seemed impossible for xms chi dance to get a GWH…

I remember the times when even zou lao shi felt that we could only get a COP…

I remember the times when we were so heck care abt this SYF…

I remember how we use to look forward so much to the end of each dance practice

I remember the times when we complained so much about our muscle aches, burses and other minor injuries

I remember the times when zou lao shi use to complain and compare that we were so slack, unlike our seniors

I remember the times when we were told that we were the worst badge of SYF dancers…

I remember how we had no confidence in ourselves

I remember how disappointed zou lao shi was, with us…

But…

As we became more and more bonded...

As SYF drew near…

I remember the times that we use to complain how little time we have to practice, compared to the other schools

I remember how I use to dread the end of each dance lesson

I remember how upset I was when zou lao shi said my movements were not correct

I remember how much I cried…

I remember how touched I was when I heard the positive comments, even if it was just a ‘well done’ by a teacher or madam liew.

I remember how much I cherished every moment during the last practice…

I remember how touched the dancers were after the SYF…

I remember how happy we were, screaming and shouting at the parade square

Ahhh…. I want to have another SYF dance practice….

I want to enjoy that moment a gain….

I want to feel the bond of the dancers, striving towards a common goal….

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Today, I did the interview for the SL nominees.. it was a brand new experience for me… and I think that it was rather fun…. Haha…

We took votes, to determine if someone pass or fail…

But the results haven’t been announce yet…

But, to those who fail, there will always be a 2nd chance… so don’t worry! =)

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My announcement duty totally screwed up larhx!!!
I don’t care liao lah! Wat done is done…=)

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I’m so proud of myself today… I didn’t , make lamberx angry!! Yay….=)

Kk need to study alr… bb!

dance away….=)

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

6:17 AM

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

6:17 AM

Monday, April 16, 2007

Whatever you do … pls read continue reading this post until the end…

SYF is over… I cant believe it.. it was like damn quick larhx…

I love Xinmin Chinese dance troupe a lot a lot a lot…. We are so bonded… think I shall start from the beginning

I woke up at 5.45…

Then went to limin’s house for the braids thing… first, I left home late… at 6.15, when I’m suppose to reach at 6.15.
Then, I went to the wrong block- 533 instead of 553 -.-

So we were kinda late larhx…

When we reached school, we found out that we tied our hair wrongly, cos, it was too big… In other words, I went to limin’s hse 4 no reason… nvm-.-

Then we wear our costume and my foundation smudged on my costume WA LAO! So unlucky leh… so I had to spent time removing the foundation on my costume with makeup remover…

We put on our makeup… it was nice lah...esp the eye 1…

Then we ate and, put lipstick and the hair thing….

We went to the hall to practice aftthat… and borrowed some shoes from the ppl having PE, to mark out the stage… thanx man! We made them wait for their shoes leh… they sacrifice their recess! So nice…

(my eng sux, cos I’m nt in a gd mood sry… but I shall force myself to blog on…)

Then, we set off 4 NUS….

The school after us was like saying we COPY their costume larh! Pls lah… ours really nicer lorhx… nevermind….
We did some warm ups and we cheer…

The school b4 us was using the smoke machine… thus, making the floor slippery….

But we still managed, cos our sch hall the floor is much more slippery than the stage one…

At the backstage I was like forgetting all my moves liao… cause I was too nervous… it was super scary lar! But I still managed with the music…

We really tried our best… made a few mistakes… but mrs lim told us that gold shldnt be a problem… it’s the matter of gold or gold with honours!....

Every1 was sleeping on the bus, cos we were too tired…

When we reach school we were screaming like crazy ppl in the parade square lah… then we threw all our jackets

We webt to the foyer to take a grp photo… and ppl were like applauding us…. So cool!
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(the below contents have nothing to do with syf)

I hate myself for having so many commitments

I hate myself for making so many mistakes in life…

I hate myself for letting down my friends again and again

I hate myself for saying sorry so many times on this blog

I hate myself for neglecting ppl

I hate myself for doing stuff that I noe is wrong
.
.
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I don’t expect u guys to forgive me….
but I’ll still try my best to make up for my mistakes…

I noe that I have caused a lot of troubles…

I noe I have made u all angry over and over again…

I noe I shldnt have left today….
I don’t noe why I did…

I know that I broke many promises…

I know that i don’t have much free time…
I’m thinking of not having so many alr…

But I beg u to give me another chance…

I promise…

I swear…

I will not let any amount of commitments, canings, scoldings, setbacks spoil our friendship…
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I just feel really confused and stressed now…

I don’t know what to do…

I don’t know what to say…

I have 3 things worrying me now…
-what I have done to u all today
-my parents
-(dun ask pls)

Trust me with another chance please…

I promise that I will change…

From tomorrow onwards, I shall be a better friend…

A better me…

I will not let you down anymore…

No matter how much it takes….

I will stand by you ppl always…

I noe this is my last chance

‘我很想哭，但就是哭不出。这一种压力和感觉是很难受的…你知道吗？’

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

6:34 AM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

I HATE you! You are such a pain!

I’m like super happy that you are going away 2morrow… please don’t every come back!

Why is it that every time I tell you the truth, I will get scolded and caned!?

Why do you have to drag my friends into this… in case you don’t know, they are like the most ‘guai’ people in the class.

Why do you have to listen to all the conversations I have on the phone, and know who I’m talking to from now onwards. (its as good as not letting me talk at all).

Why do you have to keep thinking that I am a horrible girl, some girl that will go astray so easily!?

Why do you have to threaten to cut my hand phone line?

Why cant you be like the other mothers who understands their child… you call yourself ‘a supportive parent’?

Have you ever wondered why me and the rest of the family keep so much from you?!
Have you ever wondered why weiyang said that he hates you?!

…ITS BECAUSE U DESERVE TO BE HATED! YOU DESERVE TO BE CRITICIZED!

It hurts me when I hear my aunts talking bad about you! But now I don’t care about it anymore! Because I agree with what they say, about you being a fucking idiot!

You don’t even let me watch TV,
don’t even let me go out,
don’t even let me talk on the phone after 10. “ask your friends to sms you after 10” you say. And then, when they do, you will scold me for smsing again.

I did not lie to you today.
I was really going to study!
But what do I get from telling the truth?..
I get caned, many many times. And you even have to drag my friends into this!

Now, they are all angry with me because of you! I’m going to lose my friends because of you!

Can you let me have a good childhood?!

Can you stop torturing me! Can you appreciate me for who I am?

STOP IT!
I can’t stand the pressure anymore!

So what if I can’t live up to your expectations?!
So what if I can’t be a doctor?!
Stop saying that that is my dream, because its not, its what you want.
Can you respect my decisions?

I swear, I will never forgive you!

Have you ever wondered why I want to always get out of the house so badly?...
its because you are at home, nagging and shouting at the top of your voice…

I’m so sorry Charis… I tried stopping her, but got caned further…
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Homecoming yesterday was nice… haunted house turned out to be a big success… we earned $1257 I think… I was the Japanese ghost for the second shift… hahax and I scared many peeps! Yeah…

Then I went to Hougang mall with lamberx and some other peeps…

Then I left earlier for my cousin’s wedding dinner….

Tomorrow is SYF… and I fell on my butt very hard... I didn’t even use my hands as support! Hahax.. now, my tail bone is swollen… but it is recovering… I should be able to dance… I hope peiying is ok…

I hope she will still sent me to limin’s house tomorrow morning…

JIAYOU DANCERS!

I shall stop now… I don’t have the mood to blog anymore…

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

10:40 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

12/4/07
I am very, very, very, very sorry, NJL, Charis, Meiqi n Yuxin…. I really did not know that the match would be so long… n I forgot to bring my hp… so tats why I didn’t reply…

I saw the video that you all dedicated to me, cause I couldn’t find lee lao shi to return the cam to… and I know that I really missed out on a lot a lot of fun… but I really cant help it. That day that you all went to study, I had dance. Today, I went for the volleyball thingy.

I really wished I could spend more time with you all… cause I really, really do feel happy when I’m with you all. And it is very seldom that I am happy nowadays. You know that right? I really forget about all my worries when I’m with you. And I can confine almost everything when I’m with you all.

Charis- I’m so sorry I get pissed so often. I will try to be a better partner. I really do treasure this friendSHEEP a lot! Thanks for teaching me. (I did teach u science n I help you with SOME STUFF).Thanks for keeping my secrets. Thanks for trusting me. Thanks for tolerating me. Please don’t hate me!

NJL- sorry for making you angry. Sorry for not turning up for PWs. Thanks for trusting me. Thanks for keeping my secrets. Thanks for standing up for me. thanks for making me laugh, thanks for the comic bks, thanks for making me forget all my worries when I’m with you! Thanks for PRETENDING to be les with me=D. Please understand that I’m very busy! Thanks for helping me post!

Meiqi and Yuxin- although I’m not too close to you(as NJL n charis) thanks for making all the lunches we had together so memorable. Thanks for trusting me. thanks for being a good friend=). Sorry for missing PWs.

Please don’t say that my post is very fake. Like some1’s one… I may not be a good writer, but all that I said today, truly comes from the bottom of my HEART!

I thank god for having such wonderful friends.
I love you all very much<33.

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

6:37 AM

Thursday, April 12, 2007

I really not in the mood to blog today… but guess wat ppl! I have blogged for 4 consecutive days leh!! Hehex it’s a big achievement to me! so ppl, please tag when you visit, to give me more support!

Yeah…anyway, this is going to be a short one compared to the previous RECORD BREAKING ONE!!!! Hahax charis! Broke your record, I measured it horx! =)

Btw, this is typed on 11 of April

Happy bdae weiyang!

- today, after school, I found out that it was compulsory for all BIO members to go for the vball match, and the dancers was not excuse(Joey, Peiying, alanna all went)
The cheering was super pathetic, and the C boys were trashed… its so stupid lahx! So pissed off! A teacher, refused to let us have cheer training, b4 the match. Alanna actually asked for earlier dismissal, but the idea was rejected. So, the only cheer the student knew was the chant- Xinmin, Xinmin (2claps) …. And then the students were all complaining that they were not doing other cheers, thus they refused to cheer, and our voices were drowned by the other school’s…
But, I would like to thank all the peeps that actually cheered…=) u really helped…

- tomorrow, the school is not sending any people except some SLs to cheer for our volleyball B boys match for the 3rd and 4th position… and they refused to let some SLs go because they said that there was too many peeps liao… so I think there will be only abt 25 peeps altogether?! They don’t let me go… but I’m going anyway! Our voices are so going to be overpowered by the other schools again… I hate the way SLB runs sometimes! Wat the hell!

- toady I was seriously pissed off becos acordibg to some peeps, the sls are too blame for the disorganized state the ppl were in just now.. F**K lah! Sry I’m veri pissed right now..

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Anyway, I was late for dance, cause of that…
Mdm. Liew came to watch our dance today, and she said very encouraging words, until I wanna cry… caused I was really moved by her words=)

Then Peiying strained her waist muscles! And it was so painful that she teared!.. poor girl… OMG, I’m seriously very worried for her!
Then, Ruimin got stomach ache! It was quite bad, but she still dance…
So we ran down to get an ice-pack and a hot-water-pack 4 peiying and ruimin respectively…
OMG! Chi dance got 3 ‘casualties’ liao lehs! Get well soon please!...

I’m going to limin’s hse early in the morning on mon, to let her maid do French-plaids(sp?) on my hair( all dancers must do…

Kk must go and pack my bag for SYF liao…

=) please take care Dancers, for homecoming!

‘世界是美的’=）

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

4:05 AM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Can someone else make an effort 2 blog too? Haha.. never mind… I enjoy blogging anyway…. N tanx NJL.. 4 helping me post my posts… err.. nvm…

my bro’s birthday is tomorrow …

I realized that my previous posts were not long than charis’s record breaking1… wa lao! Cos that charis cheat one lorhx! Leave so much space… font so big somemore… CHEAT! Hehex…

Never mind… I shall try to break the record again today!!! Hehex…

Looking back at my ‘DREAM’ post, I feel tt its kinda lame n cool… hehex… I like my dream…(obviously!) but I know that I really need to get out of my lalaland, and face reality… hehex…

DESTNATION LALALAND… hahahaha… (this is just to waste space =))

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So today, after school, I went to paint banner for homecoming day… yay! It was kind of fun lah...
We had a really hard time opening the tins haha, think we almost spoilt the keys we used… oops! Hehex… a lot of ppl did not turn up for the painting banner thing…
Where is the class spirit!? =( never mind

the background is black and we painted the wordings white first…
then, jiawen did the blending… juz as I thought that jiawen was really doing a good job (for once), I left 4 dance…
but when I popped by to check 20 minutes later, I found out that that HE HAD PS BELVERLIN N REGINA TO DO THE PAINTING ALL BY THEMSELVES! So bad lors… ungentlemanly hahax…=)

I couldn’t do anything so I went for dance…

Dance was okay today…. Except for the fact that I accidentally tripped Vanessa… I’m sooosooo sry….=( srysry!
Then Mrs Ng told us what we had to bring n do on mon (SYF DAY!) …. N we stick some stuff on our costume pants…. It was quite fun lah actually… =)
The last time we dance, miss phan, ms lim/mrs ho , mdm gwee, mrs ng, n some badminton gals watch us dance…

phan lao shi say she very touched by our dance….hahax=)LOL

n the badminton ppl were saying that the dance is abt love between.. never mind… veri funny… but I don’t think I should say here…. Haha… then they also kept on urging us to smile at that that part of the dance… haha…they were so cute… dance rox!

2 more practices to SYF!!! Ahhh
.. oh ya .. band got gold for their SYF today… I heard that they could have gotten gold with honours, but they minus ten marks for their presentation, cause they totally screwed up their formation for their entrance… =( … heard that xms band was the only band that was awarded gold, for the whole day today… well done!

I really hope that we wont screw up on that day… today lao shi told us that we must relax n use our heart to dance… we should not think of the prize, or we will not do well… I guess its becos our mind will be on something else if we think for the prize…. So peeps pls dance ur hearts out….

CHINESE DANCE SHALL DO XMS PROUD AND GET OUR FIRST GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!

Ohya, and ruimin n shiting were like super happy that SYF will not be their last performance… because they will be called back to perform the SYF dance end of the year..=) they didn’t believe me @ first.. but they double confirmed with mrs ng… lao shi got say b4 what… haha nvm =)

I asked a number of dancers to come 2 to haunted hse…

And EBIRD is bringing nathanael,(some1 nt from xms) to our haunted house too! Yay… let freak ppl out.. haha lolx…

Samuel finally posted the photos…

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Oh YA… today, during PE, something happened…

I’m so sorry that you guys think that I always never come for the filming… but I really come for as many filming as possible… I’m really very sorry, the first time I missed was for the vball match, I was on duty for sl stuff,

2nd time, chi new yr

3rd for the uniform grps, I have investiture rehersal

4th time, for chi dance, I had chi dance…

5th same as the 4th..

6th , GZ, dance n motivators project…

I’m really very sorry I accidentally deleted the GZ 1… I’m really sry….

I ran with charis n NJL today, then went for recess….
NJL completed the whole run liao…

Tomorrow pw is cancelled cause of VBALL match… so I guess, I’m juz going to slack in sl room, before I go for dance… n eat lunch with the dancers…

I wish syf was not on Monday, then we still can practice more on the previous day… lyke band and ELDDS… maybe we can even be excused from lessons the day before… hehex…
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This week, I have chi dance on mon,tues,wed,fri…
Thurs I have to support the vball… then got pw, I’ll try my very best to come earlier…

Its really not easy to balance…. I’m not supergirl you know….i know that there r ppl out there who r busier n more stress than me…

Sl,

scor com,

chi dance,

ballet,

tuition,

studies(I’m so behind),

PW,

friends,

super strict parents,

homecoming…

somebody kill me! I really don’t know how to cope esp, when I become sec 3 or 4…

I will try…
My…
Very…
Very….
Best….
To….
Balance…

I like to end off my post with a quote or a nice sentence…

‘既然我选择了这一条路，我就一定要走下去’

Wish me luck ppl!
Ps. This is typed on 10/4/07
And the prevous post, 9/10/07

BYE!

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

4:58 AM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Dance today was absolutely disappointing…
it’s my fault, I totally screwed up...

Why? Why?! Cant I do it right for once?...
Why must I always screw up the whole dance?!
Why can’t I do it?!
Why can’t I be like the others?!...
This is like the 2nd time I cant find the centre line 4 e triangle part… and lao shi made us do it again.. I’m so sorry people.. its just that I really demoralized right now… I’m so sorry I keep screwing up… I really don’t know what to do…

to those people whom I accidentally ignored or if I did not laugh at your jokes, I’m sorry… I really didn’t want to cry during the dance… … I’m sorry… but I promise I will really try my very very best to not screw up again…

pls trust me…

ruimin talked to us today… I was really very disappointing to hear her say that we all were slacking n that we totally pissed lao shi off today.. she was like so totally quiet,

what seriously made me sad was the fact that the 2nd time I screwed up (I blanked out at the yuemin, me n ruimin part)… she did not even scold me for that… I wish she did… it was so obvious that she saw it! And she did not even say anything… has she given up hope on me?... I wish she had scolded me… I’m very sorry to have let you down, just 3 more lessons away from the syf…

pls tell me we still have hope dancers… I really need to hear that all our hard work will pay off, right now…

today after sch.. I had to rushy for the motivator’s training.. OIC couldn’t make it.. so basically, I had explain the stuff on the PowerPoint slides, which I have never seen b4… it was… er.. Challenging… but it was gd experience…

charis, njl, meiqi, yuxin.. I’m so sry.. I couldn’t make it for the interview today, cause I had to eat after tt, then go 4 dance… sry… please understand tt I cant possibly survive trough out dance with no lunch… n I though njl n charis was suppose to go 2 bev hse, after sch?....hmm…;)

nvm… I’m a little happier nw that I have blogged… but I’m still very tired… my legs r all so jelly nw…

“bumble bee’s wings are not built for flying, but they6 don’t knoe that , so they just fly away…” haha that was nice rite?... I don’t noe the exact words, but it was something like that anyway…
Can I not go school 2morrow.. I’m nt feeling 2 well.. JIAYOU NICOLE!.. I shall try my best… for dance(have dance again 2morrow)… maybe I’m just tired now…

Ya n I’m nt going 4 the match on wed cos of practice… but I’m going on thurs… JIAYOU Vball!!!

DANCERS… pls… BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!

Need to do hw liao… bye!

--Mary HAD a little lamb--

4:44 AM